Wave upon wave

Grief and loss can be…well, weird. It stops you dead in your tracks. It disrupts everything. And your norm? Forget about it.

Over the last year, our family has had a TON of loss. It started back in February of 2018 when my dad passed away from a long battle with lymphoma. That was a huge blow. Then, the following week, we had a miscarriage and a hemorrhage where I almost lost my wife. That was one of the scariest things I’ve ever experienced.

Six months later in August, my Grannie passed away. Days later, our Aunt Nona passed. Six months after that, my wife’s Mimi passed away unexpectedly. Talk about when it rains, it pours!

Loss upon loss upon loss upon loss. It was pretty tough for a good stretch of life. Explaining death and loss to a four and two-year-old is not fun, let me tell you.

It felt as if loss and grief had come and set up shop in our house.

What could we do? I went to work. Jeg kept busy. We just kept our minds focused on the task at hand: living life. We talked about everything. We prayed together. We prayed over our littles.

We’ve always been taught that there are seasons in your life. That there will be times when things are really good and times where things will just plain suck. Check out Ecclesiastes 3:

“There’s an opportune time to do things, a right time for everything on the earth: A right time for birth and another for death, A right time to plant and another to reap, A right time to kill and another to heal, A right time to destroy and another to construct, A right time to cry and another to laugh, A right time to lament and another to cheer, A right time to make love and another to abstain, A right time to embrace and another to part, A right time to search and another to count your losses, A right time to hold on and another to let go, A right time to rip out and another to mend, A right time to shut up and another to speak up, A right time to love and another to hate, A right time to wage war and another to make peace.” Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 MSG

To me, this season did more than just suck. It was flat out terrible. Grief just came in waves. Right when you were able to get your head above the first wave, a bigger one rolled in to push you back under. Wave upon wave just pushed us further from where we wanted to be, which was on the shore with peace.

I know, the Word says that there are seasons. I said it and referenced it just right up there. But that doesn’t make it any easier in the moment. “Well, why didn’t you talk to someone?” We did and it helped…for a time. But when you’re in a season of grief, and this is solely my opinion, other people have no idea what you’re feeling. Sure they could have experienced the same loss, but the same feelings? Nah bruh. I quit writing. Nothing felt the same, no matter how many folks I sought counsel from.

The biggest thing that has helped our family has been Jesus and leaning on the fact that every one of these family members had a relationship with Him. It’s like in 2 Samuel, when David lost his son. He prayed and fasted and slept on the floor waiting for God to move. When he learned that he had passed, David got up, cleaned himself up, and ate. Most importantly, he worshipped God. It’s his actions that have really pushed me during our season of grief.

His servants were astounded by his actions. They wondered why he did what he did. Why did he worship after he passed? He said:

“…why should I fast when he is dead? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him one day, but he cannot return to me.” Then David comforted Bathsheba, his wife…” 2 Samuel 12:23-24 NLT

He knew that he’d see him again, so he cleaned up and comforted his wife. And out of his season of grief, Solomon was born. The one who’d build the Temple. Literally, the wisest man was born out of grief and loss. How cool is that?

Things are better. Will they ever be the same? No. Not at all. But things don’t need to be the same. We have to grow, be stretched, and experience these things.

Psalms 30:5 says that, “weeping may last through the night, but joy comes in the morning.” And later, it goes on to say, “You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy, that I might sing praises to you and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever!” (Psalms 30:11-12 NLT)

During your season of grief, take comfort in Jesus. That’s literally the only thing that can shine a little light in your valley. He loves you and will never leave you. Remember, there’s joy in the morning.

Have a great day folks! Leave a comment or two just to let me know y’all are still hanging out. Y’all stay safe out there.

Turn the Page


Well, thank you for your patience over the past week. I have been just a touch busy with the newest addition to our family. Plus, Little Girl decided she wanted to start using the “Big Girl Potty” full time, so we’ve be busy. 

As we put the finishing touches to that chapter of our lives, I’m a little sad. My firstborn is becoming a full-fledged toddler, my second is making her entrance into the world, and my chocolate dog is getting even more gray on his muzzle. I want to hang out right here and just stay in this moment. But I can’t and if I could, it would selfish. 

You see, there will always be different seasons in your life. Different chapters. These chapters signify our growth and maturity as people. Major life events generally signal the end of a season/chapter and the beginning of something new. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 talks in depth about this. 

For some, this is a new opportunity. A chance to start over with a clean slate. However, Some people love the chapter that they were in so much, that they never turn the page. This could be because of heartache, anger, or even good times. 

By hanging out in the past, they delay their future. We think that we know better than God. HE is the one who signaled that chapter’s ending. HE is the one who shifted us another way. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “for I know the plans I have for you.” HE knows where we are going or should go. We just have to trust Him.

Right after that verse, we are instructed to do something that we often skip over. 

“When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I’ll listen. When you come looking for me, you’ll find me.”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:12-13

If you are having a rough time closing that old chapter of your life, just call unto HIM. Seek HIM. Do that and He will be true to His word. 

Take heart and know that when your old chapter is ending, something new is coming! In Isaiah 43:19 the Word says, “For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.” 

God is doing something new in this next chapter. Whether you have been in good times or bad times, He is doing something new! He is literally springing life from the dead ground. Cutting paths through the overgrowth of your life.

So now I can be sad that my little girls are growing up, but I take heart and encouragement knowing that God is going to continue to move in this new season. 

Whatever you are facing right now or whatever you are looking back on, know that God is able to do exceedingly and abundantly over whatever we can ask or think (Eph. 3:20). All we have to do is move forward. Put our trust in HIM.

Thanks for reading and I pray that you have an excellent day! Y’all be safe out there.